I don’t know why I want to tell you my story. I think maybe I wanted to confess and share this deep dirty and dark secret buried in my heart with someone, because this secret buried in my heart is killing me from inside every day.
I am a 26-year-old married Indian woman. I got married six years ago of my own choice, you can call it a love marriage. The first five years of my marriage with my husband passed in such a way that I felt I was flying in the air, little did I know that after a few days my path was going to be full of thorns.
I got married of my own choice, for which my parents were not ready, but later they accepted it and then our marriage was also arranged. It had been only one year since our marriage when I came to know from a friend of my husband that he had started dating other girls, going to dance bars and red light areas.
When I tried to know more about this, all these things turned out to be true and my heart broke. The world became a burden for me. When I talked to my husband about this, he accepted everything. Thinking that who does not make mistakes and should get a second chance, I forgave my husband and life started going on as before.
But after two years of marriage, in December 2020, I saw him again in a shopping mall with a girl, who was his second wife. He had married someone else, without thinking anything…
He said that he doesn’t love me anymore and can’t spend his life with me anymore. I was unable to understand what to do… I left my parents, brother, sister and friends after completing my graduation at the age of 21 for this love and marriage.
I was angry at myself that was this the love… for which I sacrificed everything to marry. My parents accepted him because of me, but still were not happy…
That very day I packed my things and came to Haldwani in Uttarakhand to look for a job. Hardly anyone could understand my situation at that time. I could not talk about this to anyone, because I had a feeling of guilt that I did not listen to anyone at that time, did not agree, so I had to bear the punishment for my mistake.
I had neither money nor anyone who could understand me. Still I moved to a friend’s house in Haldwani until I found a job and salary. I gave interviews in many companies while staying there.
On one such weekend, when I was searching the internet, I saw an ad of a company which was looking for tall girls like me. They were looking for models in Haldwani for one of their modeling projects. Their payment option was also very attractive.
They were giving 20 thousand rupees advance before the shoot of the project and after a shoot of about 2-3 hours, I was to get another 20 thousand rupees. When I called them to know about this, they asked me to send my photos. And I immediately sent them some of my casual shots.
When my call girl went to the agency
The next day, I got a call from a man from that agency. He asked me to meet him in a five star hotel in Haldwani. When I reached there, I found out that a suite had been booked for me there. I was given a bag full of branded clothes, expensive makeup products and beautiful shoes and my advance and was asked to go to my room and get ready.
When I reached the room, another girl was waiting for me there. She introduced herself to me and I went to the washroom to get ready. After about ten minutes, the man who I had met outside came there. He told me that I have to meet two people in this room, who will reach there in ten minutes. When I asked the meaning of this, he left without saying anything.
When I met my first customer
Soon, a man of about 50 years and a British youth came there. The agent who came with them said to me, “Please, give good service son”. After this, the girl already present there explained everything to me. Now I understood that I have to satisfy them on the bed and that is why I have been given so much money in advance.
What should I have done in such a situation, I know that you all will say that I should have left from there immediately because this work is not good. But my dark secret is that I did not do this. I made them happy that day.
I don’t know why I did not leave from there that day even though I wanted to. I stayed in the same hotel for the next three days and slept with more than one person every day. … and it continued like this…. For this I kept getting good money from high profile and elite clients. All this started in 2022 and is going on till now.
I wonder why I did not leave from there that day…. Did I want to earn a lot of easy money, no… I don’t know how everything happened to me. I never thought that this could happen in my life, I used to think that this happens only in films.
It is not that I was hungry for sex with a 50-year-old man. Was I enjoying it? What is the truth, I myself don’t know the answer to this. Now you too must want to know a lot about me.
Like – Do I want to leave this job now – I myself don’t know. Do I have friends – No, I don’t have any friends. Do I want to go to my husband – No. Do my parents know about this – No, they think that I am doing some job in Halu.
Do I want to get married again – No, never. Am I divorced? No, my husband lives with his second wife. Who do I live with – I live alone in Ramnagar and my parents live in another city of the country. What will happen to my future – I don’t think about it. Have I started taking drugs or alcohol – no, I haven’t and I will never do it.
